Late night ponderings...

So here it is, 3 in the morning and I am still awake. This is because technically, I am working a night shift in the recovery room....but all 6 of my pediatric patients are sleeping soundly and are not scheduled to get any more meds until 5. Soooo....I guess that gives me a solid 2 hours to write to you - unless of course there is an emergency, in which case I will cease writing abruptly and go tend to it.
Tonight-this morning I think I´d like to write about how this trip has affected me thus far. Of course it has made me appreciate many things which I have taken for granted - walls, hot water, toilets that flush - but it is also starting to affect my outlook on my future. Being a 24 year old, almost done with grad school, I kind of thought I was starting to get things all figured out. Turns out that is not the case. I have been thinking a lot about the possiblity of working down here for a few years after I graduate....or at least coming back annually to do mission trips...and I realized that in my own plans for my future I hadn´t really counted on this desire popping up. This is kind of scary for me because it would mean a lot of change and a lot of action. You can ususally count on me to get pumped up about an idea but sometimes I fall through on the follow-through. Tonight Mary and I talked about how going on trips like this causes you to be (almost) completely removed from your everyday life and allows you to refocus on ideas or plans or goals that may have gotten lost in the everyday humdrum of things. I love times like this because of that, but also it scares me - again with the need for change and action.
I guess I am typing all of this out because I know I am going to be needing some prayer. Please pray for me to have wisdom and clear vision about what God wants from my future, and that I can be strong enough to follow through with whatever that ends up being.
Love you all,
Nicole